Nancella is Back!!!!!!!!!!

In the musty underground I was waiting and waiting; I couldn't see a train was coming to take me back home again. I was 32 and going through something temporary and reversible but my mind and body thought it was very real. I slipped farther and farther away from the 'real me' and nothing could be done until it was out of my system. I took a break from blogging because I was not myself. I stopped writing because every time I started to say something, it came out dark. As New York as I am, I'm still not morose. The 'real me' is a hedonist who loves living, enjoys intimacy and seeks pleasure. The 'real me' was really scared. Sometimes, the treatment is harder than the disease.

I've spent the last few months intentionally celibate and avoiding romantic situations, which was a first for me. And even though, I have the best friends in the world, it was lonely, but it had to be done. In general, I have always had someone and if things didn't work out with that one, I usually had a back-up. After things ended with Mike number one and then Mike number two, I did not pursue any number three. I spent these last few months looking out for the real number one! With more important stuff going on in my life, dating was placed on the back-burner until I learned to love myself again. It is so nice to be back and to love the skin I'm in. I had built a wall with my pain, but I'm knocking it down, brick by brick. I'm healthy again and so I'm able to date.

For a month or so now, my best friends have been suggesting that its time to take the leap and date again. And somewhere in my intuitive and freshly fearful soul, I strongly felt that July was going to be the month that I put myself out there once again. Then low and behold, as I was out and about in NYC, the first weekend of July and within 24 hours of each other, two different guys asked me for my number. I'm excited to say, I'm back on the train. Dave number one called and we're going out. Nancella is back!