"What do you want to do now?"

"What do you want to do now?"

I just want to listen to the music and not a say a thing. I don't want to want anyone or anything more. I just aim to be content. I don't want to hurt, I just want to dance like no one can see me. Its more natural for me to listen to music than talk about myself. I'm so over it. I'm tired of putting on an excited face when all I need is an open space to walk with music in my ears. I got one chance and I can't wait to get back to being quiet again. Fixate on the timbre, intercept the lyricals. I've felt the impact of love, been deeply moved by great works of art, seen colors under the ocean that don't even look possible. I've noticed the kindness of a mother as she turns the fussiness of a child into a coo. I've seen so much so far and these moments flash through my mind, often with just a string of notes. Pure accident, bad timing, careless kisses, knowing glances, dreamy wishes, boredom, caring a little too much. Name it... its there! It's in there. It's all there. There's one place it will always be, its in my mind. I'm happy in this moment and I'm mellow under the flat beat. How lucky I am! Maybe I've moved too quickly and haphazard, maybe I am still just waiting for the next time, I can just be. The sentiment rules my soul and I can't let go because I like to feel more than anything else I do. I want to feel myself, even when its missing you, the you I do not know, the you I used to do, its easy, hear it, dwell on it, propel from it, even when its hard. I've open myself up and there was pain inside but I can access it.

"What do you want to do now?"
I want to listen to the music and shut up.