"Thanks for the Magical Beans!"

As I spent my lunch hour writing Thank You notes to the people that gave me birthday presents, I'd like to take a moment to express my gratitude to those who graced me with their physical presence at my birthday party and also those that bestowed loving thoughts upon me on and around my birthday. Thanks for the calls, cards, text messages, e-mails and myspace comments from all of you lovely people!

My 31st birthday celebrations were awesome! I went to Dinosaur BBQ on my actual birthday and then threw a house party a few days later. I felt extremely loved by the people who came to my celebration up in Harlem. Most of those who couldn't make it out, called or wrote me to let know that they cared and a few even apologized for not showing up. Those sentiments were genuine and kind, however, I am most thankful for the people who actually did show up, because being there is really the most important thing. I am coming up on my two year anniversary of living in NYC and I feel extremely thankful for all the amazing friends I have here (and all over the country, for that matter.) I can say that I actually have as many friends and probably more friends here than I had in my hometown, growing up. Although, I am a transplant, I feel like a local because I have a family here. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

I can't help but reflect upon last year, my 30th birthday, which was also pretty awesome and filled with love, except for one person who showed his true colors to me. So, last year on my birthday, I finally let someone go. The last draw was when he said I that I had to ask people to love me, what he didn't understand is that that people either love me or they don't. At that moment, I realized he didn't have the capacity to unselfishly love me, he couldn't even allow me to have the spotlight on my fucking birthday, he was a waste of my time, so I let him go. After all is said and done, that was it. It has been a year since I told him it was over between us and I'm at peace with my decision although it wasn't easy letting someone I loved, go. In his place, I have found a higher love.

I now have friends in New York City that want to be there for me, as I am there for them. I am grateful! I no longer have an empty space in my heart for this ex-friend, instead, I have an open and honest heart for real friends and also for those who just like to party with me. To the people that love me better... thanks for the magical beans, thanks for the art, thanks for the angel cards... you know who you are.

Thank You! Lord knows, Nancella likes to party! In fact, I binged for three days and I totally needed that. Sure I gained back a few pounds which I'll gladly work off at the gym, and yes I have a Party Cold from being naughty.. but it was very necessary to send 2006 away with reckless abandonment. I could be a ridiculous slutty snowbunny for three days (and still come back and be who I've grown up to be, a responsible adult) Hell, I needed to be a ridiculous slutty snowbunny and I was able to, because I wasn't alone, I was amongst people I knew would protect me should I fall down, like I did last year, Oy. Some people at my party, may not know me enough to love me, but they love to party and that's just fine! Thanks a whole lot!