Intellectual Vanity

The first thing the psychic told me was that I was a very independent person. She said I was very creative and probably made my living in the arts. She also told me that because I am talented, things come easy, but because I am also a dreamer, I don't see things to fruition. She was right, on so many levels, she was too correct. We all took turns. She took us separately and told us not to share what she had predicted because it could affect future outcomes. Of course, we all did, it was the remarkable topic of our dinner conversation.

I admitted that I had a disability today. No, not my hearing, something else, something that I guess I'm ashamed of because I can't find the courage to say it to anyone but the person who made me aware of it. I don't like it, but I don't think there is anything I can do about it. First time in my life, I acknowledged it. I realize that it doesn't detract from my intelligence because I have always been one of the smart kids, but I feel like it takes me down a peg or two. Maybe that's intellectual vanity. Maybe its because things have always come easy to me. In meditation, I had asked my guardians why I self sabotage and they told me it's because I need to be challenged.